Love is patient.

A few thoughts.

I hate it when I pass up opportunities and then they aren't available to me when I'm ready for them to be offered again. I feel cheated. I feel as though I'm making the worst decisions. I feel as though I'm the most fickle persone alive. I wish life were more simple. There are days I wish emotions were automatically displayed on someone's sleeve as though it were an ever-changing tattoo. These are the days where I realize my dependence is not on the Lord, but on men. It sickens me. These are the days when I'm ready to go home to the Father because I get so exhausted with life's decisions. But that's the easy way out and the Lord has a lot more to teach me, grow me; I have a lot of struggling to do on this earth & I know He'll be here for me throughout it all. I have a Savior that is all sufficient & will ALWAYS rescue me, no matter what that looks like.

This song just came on my Pandora station. Jason Walker- "Down"

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I'm not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up, what I’ve been wishing for.

Good lyrics. Often how I feel when I'm trying to do it all by myself.

Onto what I'm reading today:

A hard truth, but altogether true-

Ecclesiastes 12:13-14

"Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God & keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil."

2 Corinthians 8:7

"But just as you excel in everything-- in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us-- see that you also excel in this grace of giving. I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich."

Psalm 50:1-2

"The Might One, God, the Lord, speaks & summons the earth from the rising of the sun to the place where it sets. From Zion, perfect in beauty, God shines forth."

I will continue to rest in the Lord. I'm not saying it's easy, but it's worth it.